I have been completely hoodwinked. Lied to. Deceived. Made a mug of. Call it what you want, it’s all the same.
I gave my all and trusted him with everything. I feel stupid, grotesque, sad, devastated and my heart is broken. I feel daft writing that but it’s true. I feel like it’s been ripped out, my insides are empty. I feel so sad. I’ve hardly eaten and can’t sleep. I’ve run out of tears.
I wish I could lose the images that are in my head. It’s like when I got told I had cancer all over again. Big, flashing, illuminated letters on the insides of my eyelids just in case I forgot I had it!!
I won’t ever forget this. I won’t ever forget how he’s made me feel. The 12 months+ of lies. There’s a saying – once bitten, twice shy or in my case – once bitten, twice is damn stupid!!
Oh well eh. They say you learn from your mistakes.