It’s been one hell of a year and I’ve had a blast!
January saw me going to Belfast for the first time to meet up with one of my YBCN friends – Melanie. We applied to go on Big Brother and although we weren’t successful, we had a fab day seeing the sights and getting to know one another.
A couple of weeks later, February 7th to be exact, saw me rushing to A&E with appendicitis. It was whipped out the next day and I spent a couple of hilarious nights in hospital partying with the elderly ladies on my ward!
I went to the Brit award show and saw Bruno Mars and Adele in concert. I met Simon Cowell, David Williams and Amanda Holden at Britain’s Got Talent.
I took the kids to Butlins for the weekend and was lucky enough to visit New York – somewhere I never thought I’d see.
July saw me start my ’40 things before 40′ challenge. I’m slowly ticking things off of my list – horse riding, turning the Christmas lights on in town, pretending to be a firefighter, reading 40 books and also getting my own radio show on Radio Dacorum! My 2 hour slot is a little bit of escapism and has the same effect on me as going to the gym – it really helps my mental well being.
I went to 2 balls. The first was a wedding dress ball in aid of the Hospice of St Francis. The second was The Pink Ribbon Ball in aid of Breast Cancer Now and it was here that I met Nick Knowles 😍 I’d had my make up done professionally and with the help of a very special lady, bought a beautiful ball gown to wear. I felt amazing.
I had 2 sets of scans and thankfully got stable results both times. As the years go on, scanxiety is getting worse. I guess it’s the not knowing how long the proverbial piece of string is. Nothing I can do but keep on keeping on. I’ve had 40 hospital/doctor appointments – zoladex, Port flushes, Bone juice, cardio and oncology.
I also did a lot of media work on behalf of both Breast Cancer Now and Macmillan. I made some video diaries on life with SBC and manned the BCN twitter account for a few hours. I appeared on the BBC for Macmillan and also on their news app. I also wrote a guest blog for the Huffington Post explaining why I never wanted to know my prognosis.
I call myself a media whore but I mean it in an affectionate way. I never set out to be so vocal about my illness but it’s become important to me to shout about it, to raise awareness.
My 2 best friends, Michelle and Rebecca are the bestest friends a girl could ask for. They’ve been by my side through thick and thin, they’ve been a shoulder to cry on and they don’t mind when I make them dress up in all manor of luminous tutus!! I’d truly be lost without them.
I’ve also made so many new friends and the support I get from each and every one of them blows me away continually.
I’ve also seen a couple of milestones – my oldest daughter left to go to university and I had to apply for my youngest daughters secondary school. Both things I wasn’t sure I’d get to see/do when I was first diagnosed. I’m also watching my son grow into a fantastic young man, a keen rugby player who is getting on well academically.
Things that are taken for granted. Things that three and a half years ago, I was unsure that I’d see.
So, on that note, I’d like to wish you all a very happy new year. I’m counting my blessings and feel lucky to have made another year – many of my friends didn’t. Tonight I’ll be raising a glass for those we’ve lost.
Love your life, love the people who choose to share it with you and never take anything for granted.
Thank you for being there xx